Pandemonium by Bella Jewel
Published by Self-published on January 26th 2016
Genres: Biker / MC, Suspense
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I am the good girl, the one who does no wrong.
Daughter to a ferocious and strong MC President, I know what protection feels like.
Until one night changes everything - and not a single person in the world can protect me from it, not even my dad.
Suffocating. Alone. Desperate.
I let my problems live deep inside until there is no longer anywhere to run.
I need an escape. Anything to make the pain go away.
Trouble comes for me, and I don't fight it.
I tried so hard to believe in what I was,
But nobody understood.
Not until him. Not until Lucas.
He sees me. He believes in me.
He refuses to let me drown.
He’s my way out. My escape.
But Lucas is forbidden. He’s a cop. I’m in danger. And my father is trying to protect what can’t be protected.
There can only be one outcome.
Survival came at a price and there was no going back.
Ava’s captors underestimated her determination to not run back to her family as they intended her to. They took her to hell and back yet she refused to let them have the final satisfaction of winning by allowing her loved ones to see the pain they inflicted on her.
She decides to face her fate alone, believing no one can help her is a drowning sensation. Luke, a stranger who happened upon her that evening is drawn to save her, especially when he begins to see how the murky waters are consuming her. He is the kind of guy her family would disapprove of. Her family is the type Luke wants off the street. He’s a cop and her family are the Hell’s Knights Motorcycle Club.
There’s no instant anything here. The plot unfolds slowly. Ava refusing to share with others that the ongoing pain she is enduring from her capture is taking a toll on her. She seeks solace by drinking herself into a state of numbness as a coping mechanism. It’s when sobriety surfaces, she struggles to maintain her mask of indifference. Luke refuses to watch Ava spiral into the self-destruction she is headed for and does all he can to circumvent it.
The sense of loss and how people cope with it was depicted several ways within the story. The focus is primarily on Ava but her awareness of others’ pain compels Ava to deal with her own. Where Pandemonium stood out as being different to other books within the MC genre, was the connection I felt for Luke in this story. He was the good guy and normally, I’m the anti-hero fan. Why I slowly warmed to Luke had a lot to do with his history not being revealed until well into the story, evoking an air of mystery when it came to him. The story is told through past and present as well as alternating POV chapters. The alternating POVs I have no problem with. Having to go between past and present chapters I am not a big fan of. On top of that, there was a lot of telling rather opposed to showing when it came to events and characteristics. There was one moment I would have preferred to be told rather than shown, so I’m mindful of being cautious of what you wish for!
Choosing the order in which you read books can have a major influence on the book you are currently reading. I had not long finished an MC book from a series I love and have a strong familiarity with the characters. So Pandemonium was up against the buzz from my previous book and a little unfair perhaps. Blow me away if both books don’t have a character with the same name. Not only were they different genders but their characters were opposites in every other way as well. It took a while to adjust to a character who shared the same name from my last book and separate the two. It shows there’s a lot to be said for a well-planned reading order 🙂
At times, it can be hard to rate a story where the content is dark and disturbing. It’s not a case of whether you liked the story as much as to the way the writing moves you. Ava and Luke’s stories moved me but the story was more about them than the MC.
While Ava’s ties to the MC were strong, the story was predominantly Ava’s, set in her world outside of the MC where her family visited her more than she visited them. There were a few aspects of the story where the credibility of a situation had me wondering if it was plausible, for example View Spoiler » a police officer taking a statement from a person they were involved with – not sure of the legalities, but it seemed to be questionable. The second aspect to astounded me as to how Luke could get away with his association with a family member of an MC. « Hide Spoiler and for me to start questioning situations within a story it loses the ability to hold me within the world I’ve escaped to. Questions aside, I am curious enough to continue with this series. I had already wanted to read this book before I saw the cover but I have to give kudos to the design of Pandemonium’s cover – appropriate and eye catching 🙂
Lily’s Rating: 3 Stars
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